Every morning Trilly and I go for our mile walk around the community. It started as a time dedicated to God, a time for me to be still in spirit; yet, I could be a good pet owner and allow the young bitch to expend some energy each day. After lent ended the strolls continued. I mean who could take away a bone from the cutesy starving dog ever, just like who can say no to that enthusiasm that greets me daily at the sound of my alarm. None, no-one, nadie.
Lately though, my mind is on 100,000 different things and my eyes are tired or my body is moving so slow I wonder if we will make it back before dawn, which is crazy seeing as that's another hour and some change away at that point.
I don't like it. The full mind syndrome. I would love to, I need to, I want to be at the place where I'm walking along so in tune with God that there is nothing detestable filling my mind, no shameful or needless thought inhabiting my brain space. Work, dedication, the ability to say no, to take control so that my desires become reality.
Baby steps this I know. I started by taking some time to look At the stars. Just a moment to be reminded of how small I am, how amazingly cool God is and how I would love to save those stars that I saw in the dark nights in California and Indiana and alaska...those same ones, though they appear brightest in Tanzania. It's the small moments, its the few stars ww see...these reminders that I am minescule and yet a princess. I am small and yet a great warrior for the king, one sent out to represent His name... Oh yes this is what I hear when I look at the stars. Thank you Jesus for opening my heart, for allowing me to feel, for getting me through it all . I love you!
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