डॉ. Seuss

Why it changes my tying to another language sometimes in the title I cannot figure out...maybe I was messing around with the settings a while ago and I can't remember what I did, maybe not...well yeah that's what happened, but eh I'll live with it.
So, growing up...I guess that's the main thought for the day here. Basically I've come to the conclusion that people are 'grown-up' when they are established, ya know, house, car, dog, job, community, settled in an area...well by that definition I guess I'm close to being a grown up...got a car, job, dog, house in a few short weeks, community-getting there, settled in an area-just give it a little more time. But then when you consider the conversations I've had with future roommates and we are talking about a stash bash for her b-day party and how we could all sleep in one room then have a play room and a study room(office)...well then it doesn't sound so 'grown-up' does it:)
That's when I think through this whole process and relating to those around me in these adult realms and I realize there are some people who are definitely grown-up...they come in one of a couple ways...
they could be Grown-up A: Try to act cool and hip, but really don't know how to relax and have fun and maybe they have kids, maybe not, but really not many people enjoy their company b/c they are complacent or complain about stuff or talk about others and therefore are more of a staunch type grown-up
or...
they could be Grown-up B: Display a wisdom and art of relating to people of different age groups and cultures in a way that is not demeaning, but even with openness to learn from someone who may have a different perspective on life. They understand all the grown-up things, maybe have kids, maybe not, have a house and the outside appearance of grown-up, but are quick to reveal that they try their best and may not have all the answers.

I'd like to think I'm working on the Grown-up B approach. Really no one can understand it all, no one can really give you a working definition of escrow and mortgages and insurance and titles, they might give you one good one but can't relate it to the others or they tell you what they heard and learned when they went through it, but never really digested it all and know why it works the way it works. (Refer to Friends episode where Chandler and Monica buy a house and try to explain to Joey what Escrow means)
So, yeah I don't understand it all...I know what I need to do this week so they can do what they need to do with the other pieces and we will work together and get it done, no-one really understanding the whole process (and if they tell you they do then ask them about Euthenasia:pronounced Youth in Asia and see what they have to say about that), and in the end we will appear grown-up to those who have not muddled through it themselves, but in the inside we will know the deception of it all.
I'm surprisingly okay with that, it's like a joke we're playing on others Knowing all the while that God knows what's going on and He kind of chuckles along with us and holds our hand and gets us through this new funny grown-up transition phase. It's like each step of life, each different chunk when we think it's either really bad or really good b/c it's change and we either are really excited or really nervous or really overuse really...it's like at those times when He can see it all from beginning to end in no particular order to Him that He enjoys holding our hands and experiencing the flood of emotions together. When we don't know what else to do besides ride it out and wait and see and He obviously can see it all, but we get to wait in anticipation and enjoy the ride.
It's tricky to balance this contentment with the here and now with the hope for a future and planning for how we could be used or maybe dreaming what we think could happen...but then you don't want to underdream God, you don't want to discredit how His plans could be so beyond anything you could imagine.
So what do you?
Not dream
No way
You dream
You share your heart
You go big or go home
You set yourself up in one direction and start running and preparing as best you can.
Maybe you stay on the course you picked
Maybe you get to take the alternative route and be surprised and realize you took that one hill when you didn't really need to, but you learned from it. You look back from the top of the next hill and see what went right, what went wrong, what things had you no way of seeing because you weren't supposed to.
So, maybe I'm gonna dream big and throw it out there that I want to practice for a couple years and get really good at what I'm doing.
Then in no particular order I want to:
have a few students to develop their skills
do qualitative research as i get my doctorate in something so I can teach PT
coach pole-vault at the collegiate level
treat the athletic population juvenile and up
take students overseas to experience another culture and serve them
have a therapy dog
complete a half-ironman
attend the olympics (as a PT would be awesome, but I'll settle for just attending)
hike up a mountain
be a regular at a restaurant and get my picture on the wall
have someone to experience the above with (gasp, did I dare dream that?)
yeah, I think after the post lunch talk today about dreams and futures that we can dream, we can hope. Any of the above might or might not happen and as long as God is number one and serving Him, furthering the kingdom, worshiping him through any and everything we do...as long as that stays number one, then you have to be okay with the outcomes...you will be okay with the story because it's you and God.
And I'm tired of all the deep talk today, loved it, cherished it, stimulated by it, but I'm about to be lost in a book or movie...because I can:)