Slight bitterness creeps in this evening. I'm bitter because I'm in mourning. I've started the process of mourning yet another move in life, another period of transition, another callous on my ever broken and healing heart. Whoever thought the quote posted to the left about a broken heart was a good idea...okay well me...but really!? Really?!? I was talking/writing to God last night and I shared with him my current heartache and countless broken bits that line the road of my life, strewn about the globe here and there. That's the only reason I can be so blunt here is because I already laid it all bare with my Savior who has enough grace and mercy to allow me to mourn and curse the day I picked that as a favorite quote. He knows deep down I am thankful. He sees through my bruised exterior to the soft pulp of a heart that still is beating and transmitting His love flow as it was made and called to do. Yes, at times my heart feels fragile like a china doll (never really knew what a china doll was, just know they are fragile). Especially when I have to leave people who have blessed me with their words, their hugs and kisses, their smiles and acknowledgment of the fact that we share the same God and Savior Jesus Christ and are inhabited by the Holy Spirit who speaks all languages and speaks to my heart through them. But then I'm reminded that the great Healer arranged it all and will continue to take care of them and me. He will once again give me the strength to put my heart out there, knowing I will never get that piece back and I hope I don't. I would rather share it and have known such amazing hermanos en Cristo than to have not been given the chance encounters. Thank you Lord. Todo alabanza y gloria a Dios.
Dios te Bendiga
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