Wow! Let's just give God the glory for things seen for a minute...
...the snow crystals falling from the sky
a 2 inch improvement in a vertical jump...
...a lightbulb moment while studying, totally visible
the care one friend holds for another over a cup of coffee...
...an exquisite display of talent upon a basketball court
the date on a calendar for the start of spring break...
...His influence on the changing of the seasons
the absolute power in a few encouraging words to give energy...
...the effect of pounding hours of neuro into one's hippocampus
the result of those hours of struggle on one single sheet of paper...
Wow, God, you give us eyes to see, hearts to see through and help others view parts hidden to the naked eye. Praise Jesus for His Power that is Perfect in weakness and whose grace is enough. Therefore, I too will boast all the more loudly in my weaknesses...and oh they are many.
Today's post inspired by: 2 Corinthians 12:9-_; friends who allow God to use them in each stage in life; more friends who stay close by through the questions and frustrations and are always just a phone call, car ride, or a Starbucks away.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
a girl can only take so much
you put in the hours, think you got it down front ways and back, you eat and study at the same time, you catch yourself dreaming about finding bony landmarks, you actually are reviewing the neurotransmitters that have to be inhibited for you to relieve your bladder as you are relieving your bladder...yes that last one is sadly true...
and then you go in heart on your sleeve you do the deed, put it all out there, this ones for all the marbles. the assessment is taken, the quiz completed, the practical performed
and then the moment of truth. you log onto blackboard and click on the grades tab, find the appropriate class, your breathe catches in your throat as your past two weeks of non-stop studying flashes in your minds eye in the millisecond it takes the page to load...
...and you barely passed, you find you had a basic understanding, but not quite up to par yet, you see a dash where the grade should be and realize you are one of the "lucky" ones who gets to come back in and chat with the professor about the practical to prove you actually are competent with the program and can then talk your way up to a grade-instead of a dash.
like I said, a girl can only take so much
and then you go in heart on your sleeve you do the deed, put it all out there, this ones for all the marbles. the assessment is taken, the quiz completed, the practical performed
and then the moment of truth. you log onto blackboard and click on the grades tab, find the appropriate class, your breathe catches in your throat as your past two weeks of non-stop studying flashes in your minds eye in the millisecond it takes the page to load...
...and you barely passed, you find you had a basic understanding, but not quite up to par yet, you see a dash where the grade should be and realize you are one of the "lucky" ones who gets to come back in and chat with the professor about the practical to prove you actually are competent with the program and can then talk your way up to a grade-instead of a dash.
like I said, a girl can only take so much
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Bringing it all together
bits and pieces of so many different things fill up my life...do they connect? For sure! Are they all part of a huge puzzle created by THE CREATOR many moons ago? You bet!
one piece comes on Sunday morning "church" i like to call it "a meeting of people who love the same God and can become family for that one reason only and all the other stuff is just us living in worship to Him"...not always that simple, but it's a start. So, let's review the message presented today: We are adopted by God. in short: Ephesus a city all about appearance-kids left at the bottom of a hill if they were "defected"-others could come and pick them up if they wanted to raise a "worker" (otherwise they just were left to die)-and that was the first form of "adoption"
Now: Ephesians 1:3-5 goes something to the effect of Jesus Christ adopting us into his family and that gives Him great pleasure, joy even! wow! joy! God adores us despite our defects and picks us up off the hillside to take us home with Him and finds great joy in us. He takes delight and pleasure in me, in you. Not even that, but He trusts us with His self, He made us light-bearers to shine from a hilltop (Matthew 5:13-16)
And what's more, He told Peter to feed His sheep.
Oswald talks about the process of being made broken bread and poured out wine means that we have to be the nourishment for other souls until they can learn to feed on God...so we have to be filled up at the source so others are getting the life source through us
I like this, "You have no right to say -- "O Lord, I am so exhausted." He saved and sanctified you in order to exhaust you. Be exhausted for God, but remember that your supply comes from Him. "All my fresh springs shall be in Thee.""
Self-reflection: I feel loved to know my God, Jesus picked me up from the bottom of the hill and dusted me off and said, let's go I have great things in store for you.
How do I live that day by day? Can I be feeding the sheep while line dancing, wearing a cowgirl hat, and having a drink with peers while discussing the latest research on acute care and PT? I don't see why not...do I need to be careful in that to make sure I am filled up ahead of time, to be able to say at the end of the day (or early morning) that I present myself before you Lord and am not ashamed and can present my body to you as a living sacrifice holy and pleasing to you? Yes, indeed that's why I need to be getting it from THE SOURCE.
Is it possible to be feeding the sheep while _________________?
Fill in the blank yourself...are you feeding the sheep and interacting with the motives to be able to say at the end of the day that you can stand, kneel, fall flat on your face before your Jesus and be content just staying there basking in His presence...knowing He adores you and loves you despite yourself...oh yes, He does.
How does all this get brought together? How does it neatly tie into a package to be easy to digest? It doesn't...it's the random pieces of the puzzle that don't have a match yet, it's the process of learning by feel how they all go together...it's a process directed by the most awesome God ever!
one piece comes on Sunday morning "church" i like to call it "a meeting of people who love the same God and can become family for that one reason only and all the other stuff is just us living in worship to Him"...not always that simple, but it's a start. So, let's review the message presented today: We are adopted by God. in short: Ephesus a city all about appearance-kids left at the bottom of a hill if they were "defected"-others could come and pick them up if they wanted to raise a "worker" (otherwise they just were left to die)-and that was the first form of "adoption"
Now: Ephesians 1:3-5 goes something to the effect of Jesus Christ adopting us into his family and that gives Him great pleasure, joy even! wow! joy! God adores us despite our defects and picks us up off the hillside to take us home with Him and finds great joy in us. He takes delight and pleasure in me, in you. Not even that, but He trusts us with His self, He made us light-bearers to shine from a hilltop (Matthew 5:13-16)
And what's more, He told Peter to feed His sheep.
Oswald talks about the process of being made broken bread and poured out wine means that we have to be the nourishment for other souls until they can learn to feed on God...so we have to be filled up at the source so others are getting the life source through us
I like this, "You have no right to say -- "O Lord, I am so exhausted." He saved and sanctified you in order to exhaust you. Be exhausted for God, but remember that your supply comes from Him. "All my fresh springs shall be in Thee.""
Self-reflection: I feel loved to know my God, Jesus picked me up from the bottom of the hill and dusted me off and said, let's go I have great things in store for you.
How do I live that day by day? Can I be feeding the sheep while line dancing, wearing a cowgirl hat, and having a drink with peers while discussing the latest research on acute care and PT? I don't see why not...do I need to be careful in that to make sure I am filled up ahead of time, to be able to say at the end of the day (or early morning) that I present myself before you Lord and am not ashamed and can present my body to you as a living sacrifice holy and pleasing to you? Yes, indeed that's why I need to be getting it from THE SOURCE.
Is it possible to be feeding the sheep while _________________?
Fill in the blank yourself...are you feeding the sheep and interacting with the motives to be able to say at the end of the day that you can stand, kneel, fall flat on your face before your Jesus and be content just staying there basking in His presence...knowing He adores you and loves you despite yourself...oh yes, He does.
How does all this get brought together? How does it neatly tie into a package to be easy to digest? It doesn't...it's the random pieces of the puzzle that don't have a match yet, it's the process of learning by feel how they all go together...it's a process directed by the most awesome God ever!
Sunday, February 3, 2008
thoughts
i'm an introvert today. i have a lot to think about. a lot to try not to think about and let God handle. where will He send me for clinicals round one...where will i choose to live and work...where will we live and who is the we starting in may...
i am blessed to live with an amazing woman of God who includes me in her life. she shares her stuff, her struggles, and her joys which lately have been many. she lets me dote on her, though she does not always know it; she lets me shout with her and talk with her and help her carry her burdens to the Lord in prayer. she is beautiful.
i was blessed to spend yesterday with an amazing woman of God. a friend who shares herself, though it's hard, though it's scary, though satan tries to come in and destroy and whisper lies. i learned more about her, about showing love and receiving it. i learned we love the same Savior and can wrestle before him with profound truths, with questions, and theologies we don't understand. i feel safe with her because we are safe with Him. she presses me to be better, to say what i want, what i feel, what i know; yet, i resort to the pen and quill to sort through these deep thoughts that I can not articulate out loud, they are reserved for the tap of the key and the stroke of pen. this woman she is patient with me and we will learn even more still. this woman, she is beautiful.
i was blessed to talk just now to an amazing woman of God. she speaks His truths and holds His hand while skipping in a field of wild flowers. she let's me come and run and play; she makes me speak and loves me just the same. she sees Him in me and i see Him in her...and we are so similar and so different. she is the best one at making me cry and i don't care. i would rather shed these tears of joy, love, understanding, struggle than laugh it off till tomorrow. i am honored that He allows us to be, that He allows me to see that she is beautiful.
i am blessed by God day in and day out as He speaks His words of love to me, as He affirms me through the words of another, a woman of God, a man of God, a scribe of God, a faithful servant of God. i am blessed for the persecutions yet to come (2Tim3:12) i am blessed for the hard times, for my response to praise Him in the hard times...for my desire to follow Him anywhere to go where He leads. God, it's hard. God, i can't do it on my own. God, i rely on your strength.
i am blessed to live with an amazing woman of God who includes me in her life. she shares her stuff, her struggles, and her joys which lately have been many. she lets me dote on her, though she does not always know it; she lets me shout with her and talk with her and help her carry her burdens to the Lord in prayer. she is beautiful.
i was blessed to spend yesterday with an amazing woman of God. a friend who shares herself, though it's hard, though it's scary, though satan tries to come in and destroy and whisper lies. i learned more about her, about showing love and receiving it. i learned we love the same Savior and can wrestle before him with profound truths, with questions, and theologies we don't understand. i feel safe with her because we are safe with Him. she presses me to be better, to say what i want, what i feel, what i know; yet, i resort to the pen and quill to sort through these deep thoughts that I can not articulate out loud, they are reserved for the tap of the key and the stroke of pen. this woman she is patient with me and we will learn even more still. this woman, she is beautiful.
i was blessed to talk just now to an amazing woman of God. she speaks His truths and holds His hand while skipping in a field of wild flowers. she let's me come and run and play; she makes me speak and loves me just the same. she sees Him in me and i see Him in her...and we are so similar and so different. she is the best one at making me cry and i don't care. i would rather shed these tears of joy, love, understanding, struggle than laugh it off till tomorrow. i am honored that He allows us to be, that He allows me to see that she is beautiful.
i am blessed by God day in and day out as He speaks His words of love to me, as He affirms me through the words of another, a woman of God, a man of God, a scribe of God, a faithful servant of God. i am blessed for the persecutions yet to come (2Tim3:12) i am blessed for the hard times, for my response to praise Him in the hard times...for my desire to follow Him anywhere to go where He leads. God, it's hard. God, i can't do it on my own. God, i rely on your strength.
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