There is a time for everything, a season for every emotion under Heaven...or so it goes similar to that in Ecclesiastes. Is it possible to experience a plethora of emotions in less than a week? Can the physical body handle such extreme joy to drained wondering? I think not only can the body handle it, but that is the root of it almost...the physical weariness manifesting itself in the suppressed state of the mind. The mind so tired of computing that it simply feels as if it will grind to a stop if one lets down the guard for one millisecond. Don't stop now little brain...you have 15 more days of work (4 till you get to recharge with time) (zero until the grace of no one but the Lord can rejuvenate). Is it as dramatic as this sounds, no. Did my mind put in close to 11 hours of solid focus power today, yes. Can I express myself overzealously if I want, yes. Why would I want to? B/c I have to exhibit self control and grown up tendencies those 11hrs+ a day. B/c that's what using a fake name and having a blog is all about. B/c if I want to start a sentence with because I can and will. And I will even start one with and and end with a preposition...though I can't think of how to end with a preposition if I wanted to at this point.!
Am I a nerd? yes
Do I enjoy sharing my knowledge and stories and facts? yes
Did I want to break out the ol Indian dance Grandpa and Sister (and Grandma on occasion) would do in the basement back in the day as I stood in lab with scalp in hand? yes
Do I proudly claim the 1/64th Native American blood I have coursing through my veins and the self proclaimed Indian name of Running River? yes
Do I dream of days without group projects and quizzes and papers and test prep? Yes and no
it's a love hate relationship.
It's the story of my life right now and i wouldn't trade it for the world! I see where I am, how blessed I am to be where I am, how thankful I am for the guidance and direction and love God has given me to be in this place, sitting in this beanbag, too tired to care, too happy to not, too eager to stop, and too hungry to cease.(not literally b/c roommate made amazing dish this evening)
peace up
a-town down
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Sunday, November 18, 2007
a girl and a parking meter
Dori Here...lately life in the big city has been rather regular. Every morning at 7:15 I shake off the shivers and start pouring on the heat as soon as I can to keep my human warm. Her favorite setting in this weather is floor-2-and just a tad to the right of middle on the scale. She has some sweet tunes in the a.m. I might add between klove and spirit66 and hillsong...though she does have some trouble with the high notes...most of the time its all music to my side mirrors. My person must be vip or something special because we always get a pretty good parking spot at my second home. Sometimes I get bored there because she leaves me for 11 hours at times, but usually it's only 9-91/2. (Sometimes when we leave she gets in all sweaty and smelly, but I don't say anything, I just try to get the air circulating as quickly as possible.) Anyway, then it's back up north for the evening. If it's nice out we like to visit a little semi-circle lot that has pretty woods and trails (and again she will get in all wet and stinky??) But I like it b/c it makes me feel tough and like the true 4X4 that I am. Maybe one day I will get to show her what I'm capable of off road! Until then, the routine isn't bad and I get my fill of regular unleaded once a week.
This weekend I noticed we went somewhere we go rarely...and there were lots of our friends with us, they had fun and laughed a lot and listened to really loud music, it had a good beat. And when they got back in they kept talking about my human and a parking meter...I need to ask her about that, but they sounded like it was a good time. I thought those were only for us four legged type, but who knows.
Anyway, Thanksgiving is coming up and I can feel the excitement build...maybe I will get to expand my range and get out on the open road a bit more this week. Time will tell. Until then, cruise happy my friends.
-Your friendly neighborhood ESCAPE (hey, that's spelled just like the word for escape!)
This weekend I noticed we went somewhere we go rarely...and there were lots of our friends with us, they had fun and laughed a lot and listened to really loud music, it had a good beat. And when they got back in they kept talking about my human and a parking meter...I need to ask her about that, but they sounded like it was a good time. I thought those were only for us four legged type, but who knows.
Anyway, Thanksgiving is coming up and I can feel the excitement build...maybe I will get to expand my range and get out on the open road a bit more this week. Time will tell. Until then, cruise happy my friends.
-Your friendly neighborhood ESCAPE (hey, that's spelled just like the word for escape!)
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Days of Rest
Sundays are the best and worst, it is a cruel irony how it all works out. I wake up early, why, b/c this ol body just can't sleep in very late, which is good because I get to chilax and chat with God and read up on His Word. Then I gotta get up and move, I'm a mover and a shaker. So, I do something crafty or ingenious. Then all the creative juices are used up...just about that time, it is finally time to go to church! wooohoo! I really do love church, bunch of people, a lot of who I don't know, but a lot of people I do know or have seen a lot and we get to sing together, praisin' Jesus, learning something new and being challenged...
ahhh...challenge. Here is the great one today, not so much challenge, but opportunity. The opportunity to affect change, the chance to be a part of something God is doing on a larger scale. The option to commit and change lives and act like we are commanded, to care for the poor and needy. Oh, I get so pumped up just thinking about it!
you gotta check this out....basically, the bottom line and way this change will happen is simply by people cutting their Christmas giving and using the money they would spend on gifts anyway to give to the advent conspiracy and there are four different levels of things that can happen, if 2,000 people give 200 then the complete 4 tier conceptual model will be completed and all by Christmas, which is amazing. All this change is in line to happen and the outcome will be determined in 8 weeks.
here's the website if you're interested in what I'm talking about
http://www.cruxministries.org/Adventconspiracy.html
if you read this you prob would be on my Christmas list and so that means, you probably won't be getting anything from me for Christmas and I expect and ask nothing from you except that you seriously consider being a part of the conspiracy. It is a nationwide thing so churches all around the country are doing it, check it out
adventconspiracy.org
Oh, did I mention each person is supposed to get 10 others to commit, so we might need to talk:) I mean, we really will be feeding the hungry, schooling the kids in booksmarts, God-smarts, and streetsmarts(or so they know how to get off the street), providing drinking water and thus better health to people who would otherwise die from diarrhea, ...is that enough, cause I can tell you more.
Now, back to how Sundays are the best. Did I mention how God answers prayers? He does. He did it all this week, multiple times, in multiple ways. Don't believe me just think about it, can't come up with anything, ask a friend, share in the rejoicing over the good He has done!
Why are Sundays the worst? Well, when one is accustomed to spending every waking moment focusing on something, getting stuff around for the next something, or being too tired to focus anymore...it makes it hard to stop the cycle. The brain wants to go go go, the body gets fidgity (but I guess that could be just me), and that's when we say...just relax, enjoy, take it in...go ahead and just about that time...it's time for Monday. Viscous cycle.
I wrote a poem about rain this morning cause it has been a rainy day. I listened to a preacher on the radio. I laughed as roommate4life made her way down the stairs in rollerblades, she laughed as I made my way up. I rollerbladed in the apartment, remember when mom would say you're not allowed to rollerblade indoors, and how they said that at school and in the dorm, though I can't promise it didn't happen anyway and in less than full clothing like that one May term...ahaha...let's just say many girls who lived on 2 East might be scarred for life. (yes, it was worth it)
Oh, the good old days
Gotta have stuff to look forward to, can't be looking in the past...I'm looking forward to after this week to have two major tests done, two papers completed and one turned in, to be able to play in the water with young friends and enjoy a pizza party afterward...add another day on so after Monday to be able to say that I get to have three major tests done, no more things to study till after Thanksgiving, seeing a long lost friend from the south, and getting my groove on, b/c remember I'm a mover and a shaker:) hahaha
until next time ya'll
Yeeehaaawww!
ahhh...challenge. Here is the great one today, not so much challenge, but opportunity. The opportunity to affect change, the chance to be a part of something God is doing on a larger scale. The option to commit and change lives and act like we are commanded, to care for the poor and needy. Oh, I get so pumped up just thinking about it!
you gotta check this out....basically, the bottom line and way this change will happen is simply by people cutting their Christmas giving and using the money they would spend on gifts anyway to give to the advent conspiracy and there are four different levels of things that can happen, if 2,000 people give 200 then the complete 4 tier conceptual model will be completed and all by Christmas, which is amazing. All this change is in line to happen and the outcome will be determined in 8 weeks.
here's the website if you're interested in what I'm talking about
http://www.cruxministries.org/Adventconspiracy.html
if you read this you prob would be on my Christmas list and so that means, you probably won't be getting anything from me for Christmas and I expect and ask nothing from you except that you seriously consider being a part of the conspiracy. It is a nationwide thing so churches all around the country are doing it, check it out
adventconspiracy.org
Oh, did I mention each person is supposed to get 10 others to commit, so we might need to talk:) I mean, we really will be feeding the hungry, schooling the kids in booksmarts, God-smarts, and streetsmarts(or so they know how to get off the street), providing drinking water and thus better health to people who would otherwise die from diarrhea, ...is that enough, cause I can tell you more.
Now, back to how Sundays are the best. Did I mention how God answers prayers? He does. He did it all this week, multiple times, in multiple ways. Don't believe me just think about it, can't come up with anything, ask a friend, share in the rejoicing over the good He has done!
Why are Sundays the worst? Well, when one is accustomed to spending every waking moment focusing on something, getting stuff around for the next something, or being too tired to focus anymore...it makes it hard to stop the cycle. The brain wants to go go go, the body gets fidgity (but I guess that could be just me), and that's when we say...just relax, enjoy, take it in...go ahead and just about that time...it's time for Monday. Viscous cycle.
I wrote a poem about rain this morning cause it has been a rainy day. I listened to a preacher on the radio. I laughed as roommate4life made her way down the stairs in rollerblades, she laughed as I made my way up. I rollerbladed in the apartment, remember when mom would say you're not allowed to rollerblade indoors, and how they said that at school and in the dorm, though I can't promise it didn't happen anyway and in less than full clothing like that one May term...ahaha...let's just say many girls who lived on 2 East might be scarred for life. (yes, it was worth it)
Oh, the good old days
Gotta have stuff to look forward to, can't be looking in the past...I'm looking forward to after this week to have two major tests done, two papers completed and one turned in, to be able to play in the water with young friends and enjoy a pizza party afterward...add another day on so after Monday to be able to say that I get to have three major tests done, no more things to study till after Thanksgiving, seeing a long lost friend from the south, and getting my groove on, b/c remember I'm a mover and a shaker:) hahaha
until next time ya'll
Yeeehaaawww!
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
physical, mental, emotional, spiritual
Physically-good, strong as always, healthy, pickin up some weekend mileage here and there...about to be talked into running a mini with roommate in May
Mentally-exhausted at this moment, one test down, more to go; stuffed brain with muscles again tonight, decided to mindlessly stair at computer for remainder of evening instead of try to push through the fog
Emotionally-drained after a weekend of deepness; yet, somehow filled (gotta be from The Big Guy)
Spiritually-yet again supernaturally filled up and ready to go at the drop of a hat, if only by prayer. A lot of prayer. Not that it's easy, hence new favorite quote recently added to my blog page, it stinks at times. It hurts at times...but God's been reminding me, I hear it in many songs lately...that He is Mighty to Save. I take that literally. He is great enough to save, He hears my prayers, He knows the deepest parts my heart speaks of and who weighs heavily on it, He has given me confidence that His will be done. My God is HUGE, my Daddy-o is in Control, He cares.
Might I just mention my great loathing of time change...call me a traditionalist, call me stubborn, call me just wanting something to whine about...but seriously, do you really need it light in the morning when all your gonna do is go pen yourself up in a building for hours on end...and then since you are on "daylight savings" by the time you leave it's already getting dark out. Would you rather pull yourself out of bed and the nice warm covers to enjoy the outdoors or frolick around in the afternoon/evening sun and have time to take a jaunt after the hour of 5:30pm. yeah, that's what I thought.
Things I enjoy (aka blessings from above): new socks, amazing! crouching tiger, hidden dragon. people associated with my almamader (maybe they should teach one how to spell almumader before allowing one to be an alumn and therefore use the term). Having things to look forward to...like Gray's on Thursdays, Surface on fridays, No class on Saturdays, Church on Sunday and chill day, Seeing friends on Monday, Tuesday night b/c that means Inquiry is over, Coldmeat sandwich for lunch on Wednesday...oh wait that's everyday, my bad (though I will say I switched it up today with a peanutbutter and banana sandwich today, slightly toasted so it wouldn't totally smush en route.)
Ahhh...9:14pm My mind is saying not time for bed yet, but my body, my body's telling me yeah (sing it flash:)
gotta love the time change...esp when wake up at 5:30 and are up when didn't even have to get up till 6:15, brutal, but good for extracurricular activities such as crafts and what not.
Until next time folks
Mentally-exhausted at this moment, one test down, more to go; stuffed brain with muscles again tonight, decided to mindlessly stair at computer for remainder of evening instead of try to push through the fog
Emotionally-drained after a weekend of deepness; yet, somehow filled (gotta be from The Big Guy)
Spiritually-yet again supernaturally filled up and ready to go at the drop of a hat, if only by prayer. A lot of prayer. Not that it's easy, hence new favorite quote recently added to my blog page, it stinks at times. It hurts at times...but God's been reminding me, I hear it in many songs lately...that He is Mighty to Save. I take that literally. He is great enough to save, He hears my prayers, He knows the deepest parts my heart speaks of and who weighs heavily on it, He has given me confidence that His will be done. My God is HUGE, my Daddy-o is in Control, He cares.
Might I just mention my great loathing of time change...call me a traditionalist, call me stubborn, call me just wanting something to whine about...but seriously, do you really need it light in the morning when all your gonna do is go pen yourself up in a building for hours on end...and then since you are on "daylight savings" by the time you leave it's already getting dark out. Would you rather pull yourself out of bed and the nice warm covers to enjoy the outdoors or frolick around in the afternoon/evening sun and have time to take a jaunt after the hour of 5:30pm. yeah, that's what I thought.
Things I enjoy (aka blessings from above): new socks, amazing! crouching tiger, hidden dragon. people associated with my almamader (maybe they should teach one how to spell almumader before allowing one to be an alumn and therefore use the term). Having things to look forward to...like Gray's on Thursdays, Surface on fridays, No class on Saturdays, Church on Sunday and chill day, Seeing friends on Monday, Tuesday night b/c that means Inquiry is over, Coldmeat sandwich for lunch on Wednesday...oh wait that's everyday, my bad (though I will say I switched it up today with a peanutbutter and banana sandwich today, slightly toasted so it wouldn't totally smush en route.)
Ahhh...9:14pm My mind is saying not time for bed yet, but my body, my body's telling me yeah (sing it flash:)
gotta love the time change...esp when wake up at 5:30 and are up when didn't even have to get up till 6:15, brutal, but good for extracurricular activities such as crafts and what not.
Until next time folks
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